41414 book: The grueling vengeful victim hammer, the Dark Shadow of Jesus, the crucified lamb, and it's poisonous heavy burden on humanity

This book is for the emotionally obsessed, the corrupted, the burdened... Those carrying a cross by the shadows of the inner soul... Burdens of hatred, resentment, revenge, obsession-to-know-why, extreme desires for vengefulness, desires to reclaim masculinity or pride..

I write this book because I have felt so alone, trapped in a world full of people always asking "am I okay" , while having to pretend like I didn't want to commit extreme acts of illegal malice against people of my past, not knowing how to express this inner brokennes and pain due to therapy discouraging this outlet of expression... As it is frowned upon by "people" who live easy friendly lives... People who say it is wrong to discuss wanting to hurt somebody in a therapy session, because I had nobody to talk to and speak my own inner truth, lest I one say explode and unleash it due to pent up rage ... 

So I took matters into my own hands, because of how useless and unauthentic society has become ... To pretend like the chaos within our souls don't exist... We live in a society that has robbed us from our inner shadow expressions... Suppressing our vulgarness to become numb in a disrespectful society ... 

This book may not be for everybody, but I am such a person who could never accept the modern day spiritual atmosphere.. this is for those who seek truth at a atomic and metaphysical level. Or it can be for a broken man who lived a dangerous life, feeling alone and on the verge of making everybody want to feel his pain by hurting others.. this book is intended to speak the unspoken that we pretend doesn't exist until there is fingers of fault and blame to point.